There’ll be sound
It’ll be loud
There’ll be storms
It’ll be rough
You have a King
He is the King
He gives you peace
– Tomi Adesina
Art by: Joseph Adesina
This year, I won’t be writing about each month as I’ve done in previous years – I’ll be writing about how reflecting on my life one night in December humbled me.
I was wondering if a lot had gone my way this year and while I was about drowning in the pit of depression and ingratitude – I was overwhelmed by a flurry of emotions.
I randomly remembered 2017 when someone came all the way from Ibadan to attend one of my book signings, it surprised me because it wasn’t a big event…then I thought about the big event and how people came from different places to share my joy with me – particularly a friend who had come all the way from Delta. I was like ‘Why?’ It’s so far away from Lagos. Why do that for me? Me? Why?
This year, I had tweets, DMs on Instagram, posts on Facebook and social media in general with people saying things like “I like Tomi” “I love your works” “You write amazingly well” “You make me believe in love again” “Your writing gives me hope” – I have readers tweeting weekly about how the stories make them feel and I’m overwhelmed with gratitude because when my life is on it’s rush, I don’t remember these things, but on nights when I’m listening to Oceans by Hillsong or Letting Go by Steffany Gretzinger – my spirit becomes still and I remember the little things that flood my eyes with tears of joy…the little things like that night in July when God gave me a Scholarship I had been told I was turned down for to remind me that He was and is still in charge of my life – I remember little things like the movie, “Pilgrim’s progress – Animation (2019)” (P.S – This movie is a must watch!!!!) encouraging me on my journey.
I remember how God yanked me out of toxic relationships and associations because I wasn’t strong enough to let go, I remember how God gave me fireflies on days when I had hit rock bottom and questioned His love for me…how the little words from my friends remind me of hope, love and peace…how my family reminds me of presence.
I am reminded of how I write gems without trying, how God crafts my words and it makes sense – how the words may not necessarily make sense to me but is needed for someone else and that’s all the healing they need…how the healing of a character in my story can be my own healing…how I screamed and sang ‘Seasons’ by Hillsong in tears, I am reminded about His endless promises.
I am reminded about the Scriptwriting classes I taught and how I gave all I could till I was empty and I had never felt more full because I am strengthened when I pour into others.
I am reminded of life and love and how 2019 was beautiful because of all these things I remembered tonight while writing this.
I am reminded of all these little things that are my big things.
It’s been a great year.
Thank you all for making it special for me.
Love and Light,